Spoken

Midnight Voice

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 12:36:08 GMT

♥ Are you really sleeping,
can you hear me whispering?
Do you know how you've changed me,
from good to something better?

Are you really looking,
straight to my eyes?
Can you see through me,
can you tell that these eyes only see
the beauty within you? ♥

♥ Can you not smile for me,
at least not that way?
Don't talk to me so gently please,
it only reminds me of someone else.

Can we let this pass,
forget about it now?
Have your sweetest dream as i watch
over you tonight. ♥

Let it Pour

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 18:28:38 GMT

As colors fadeth,
so does the flower withereth away.
Do not let go of me Oh Lord,
keep me shining 'til we see.

Thirsty for the water,
that would fill my heart with joy.
Let Your glory be my guidance,
if a lost soul should I become.

As i look back I am but ashamed,
of all the clatters i have made.
Correct my ways, let me stand firm,
to which is just, right and holy.

Thirsty for The words,
that would grant me such great wisdom.
For without you I am but nothing,
with all Your grace oh Lord,
Quench me, Make me whole.

madre

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 15:04:53 GMT

It was her who heard my first cry,
the same woman who carried my weight for quite a long while.
from the day i was born 'til i learned to walk and write,
My mother, so hopeful, guided me just when life began.

With all her understanding, she has seen through me.
She has accepted what i have and have not become,
It didn't matter how high i could not leap.
The only woman who has truly embraced my being,
My mother, who else would it be?

It must have been hard for her to see me go,
to finally let me explore the world on my own and be free.
For even when i now think i have grown old,
The little darling, to my mother, i would always be.

Though i cannot grow old with her, she will always be with me.
never will all my memories of her fade away,
and as for all time kept as a precious treasure in my heart,
My mother, an epitome of pure love, happiness and Beauty.

Amidst the Noise

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 13:06:36 GMT

I came here to rest my soul,
to Find freedom from all my stresses and strives.
I came here to sing You a song,
from the deepest joy within my heart.
I find peace amidst the noise in You, Lord.

in the middle of the night i rise awake,
sEeking for tranquility and Your presence.
anSwer me Oh God, i call on to your name..
amidst the noise hear me, take time for my plea.

In your house i come to worship,
the temple built for Your glory,
may the my little voice of gratitude reach You,
make my praises be heard amidst the noise, Lord.

unwanted reminiscing

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 03:54:40 GMT

I got to look at my old journal again this morning,
and i flipped over the page i had for you..
on it i wrote everything you needed to know,
but you never got to know anyways.

There were only two who had a special page,
on that journal that contained my heart..
you were lucky i've given you one..
looks like you never got to know that too.

A closed book is what you are to me.
pages folded, unwanted to be read..
but every time i get pass that page i smile..
i guess you'll never get to know that.

"the poem he never wrote"

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 08:42:08 GMT

little children gathered every time he sat on the stone near the river bank,
an old man with gray hair and green eyes..
he didn't seem to look as old as eighty five.

every four in the afternoon he'd tell the young ones a story,
of a maiden and a prince who never got to marry.

for so many years, he'd been telling the same old tale
to all the folks who'd been there to listen.
and now that everyone else knew of it,
he had come to tell it to the children.

"there was this boy, in a blue jumper suit
who runs around with his wooden horse,
an only child, he never met his father
and so the boy came to live with his mother.

then there's this girl who lives across their street
her eyes were blue as violet,
her hair as soft as the clouds..

one afternoon their paths crossed at the candy store,
they both made friends and shared an ice cream
and remained close until their teens.

now each one is off to college
to pursue the dreams they had,
the girl went far out of town
while the boy stayed close to his mother.

each week he had a letter to send,
each time the lady replied..
it went on until they had to see each other again,
for there was a mutual understanding.

then it came that the lady thought it was time,
that they both straighten things and marry,
though she knew it was his part to play,
she sent a ring in a hurry.

to his astonishment the next morning,
he went early to buy tickets for surprise.
his plan was to fly and get his lady
and bring her home to walk the isle.

but dismay always had it's way over joy..
a storm came and for tonight he had to stay.

on the other hand, the girl flew to see him..
not noticing the sky was darker than the later night.
a strong wind blew and there was this thunder,
and all that was left to know was told on the news.

a broken heart with a ring on his finger,
the guy was writing a vow for his maiden..
for so many times he had sent her letters,
not one told of his great love for her."

and now that the story's almost over,
each children would ask about the guy..
while the children ask for the name in chorus.
the old man would just smile and gaze up at the sky.

in the eyes of a child there is purity

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 11:55:51 GMT

    i once was a child, actually we all were once a child.
remember how we used to cry when we can't have the cake we wanted to sink our teeth in?
how we mumble and rumble when we were not allowed to play outside?

    i might have forgotten some of the fondest memories i had being a tiny tot, but i know i had the best of my childhood.
now that i've grown and learned the ways of adulthood, i realized it was better when i was a child.
i didn't worry about what to eat, what to wear or how to fix my room..my mother had it all for me.
i didn't have to worry about school, i only had to play around and scribble down on my notebook while learning to write and read. my teacher would even laugh at the silly lines i've made..she thought it was cute.
now, people laugh at you when your hand writing's bad, you have to work to eat, you have to prepare everything for yourself.
if i would be given one wish, i would wish that i would have to spend my life longer as a child.

    there are a lot of times when you hear people say "you are acting like a child", saying it as if there is something very wrong about it.
maybe there is, only if you are a 40 year old guy who wants to punch a 5 year old boy because he doesn't want to share his toy soldier with you, or maybe that's just an exaggeration, but it happens.
    to want to ride the merry-go-round even when you're 50 or to play barbie doll in your 30's or to sing jack and jill everyday because it's your favorite song is not wrong, yes it may entail you being a child and that is why it is fun. because children are like that, they do what makes them happy and content.

    then what is being childish? i guess it's when you go rolling down the floor because your brother won't share his chocolates, and you're 20 (go and buy yourself your own chocolates! what is wrong with you?!)..anyways, crying is a normal adult thing..and so is shouting and screaming or laughing out loud. its all part of the emotional freedom thing..as long as don't go fighting over a silly pair of old socks =)

    so it's fun having those childish ways. to be carefree (not careless) and simple..to easily accept things as they are (though children can be very stubborn), to be forgiving and naive (people now just know too much the world is such a mess!) and to enjoy the little things in life.

and so now i have this to say to you..
"i once was a child, you were once a child, and every once in a while everybody just needs to be a child."

..go now..play along children! =)

longest holiday

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 02:46:55 GMT

i have been trained to become independent at an early age..and so i have been used to being far from home.
but i actually have never missed a single vacation where i didnt come home. even when i was away studying..i always went home for the sembreaks, summer breaks and christmas holidays!
it had always occurred to me that may be cool, for once, not to come home on christmas.
since i am now in a bigger city and there are more places to see..i thought i might as well spend the holidays here, alone.
i guess i was wrong.
christmas really is not holiday without spending it with the people who make it worth the holiday for you.
this has officially been the longest and loneliest christmas and new year i have ever had.
while my family are calling, updating me about the fun they are having, i am here stuck with the rabbit just because i had to prove that asparagus has an effect on the rabbit's platelet count. urgh!
it's not at all exciting. it's exhausting!
well..maybe this is what one gets from asking too much of a time alone...loneliness.

i am really not much of a misser..but i do miss a lot of people now, and i really miss them a whole lot!
well, there's really not much to do now but listen to music, play the piano, post blogs, surf the net and sleep just to prevent boredom (though it really can't be prevented when you have no where else to go). i would really love to shop..but i'll just end up broke and at the end of the day i'm still lonely.
pathetic right? i know. i guess that is just how i feel right now. happy new year!

against ones will

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 14:16:17 GMT

    there are a lot of times when we do things not because we want to, but because others have told us to do so. And sometimes it does not really come as a command from others that we have to obey, it just comes implied that we are to do such things.
practicing our will power is like setting up our own government where we are the people and the prime minister as well..we command and obey, we do what we want and have to do. in the other sense of being robbed from having the will power..we instead just do what we have to do, it doesn't really matter if we want it or not as long as we get it done.

    its never always easy to proclaim independence, especially not when we've been used to being under such great power. it takes guts and a whole lot of confidence to be able to actually go out and be on your on in this wild and messy world. people can't always be trusted, so then we can't always trust ourselves as well, since we are only human.
    well, as human as we are..we still are entitled to every right given to us..keeping in mind our limitations of course. so, be bold and fearless! try swimming against the waves sometimes. you don't always have to follow where everyone else is going. you don't always have to be directed. what you need is to hear your own voice, to follow your own commands. when you know what's wrong, how can you be not right. right? =)

my devotion

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 04:01:49 GMT

there was a point in my life when i thought things were going too smooth for me that i felt something must be wrong.
as a temporary dweller of this cursed land i've always known that living would not at all be easy..not for anyone because temptations are everywhere to be found.
sin has become casual to some and for most of the people who dread it, it becomes done unnoticed.
suddenly we just wake up and say "oh my goodness! i cant believe i just did that"..yeah, and you thought you knew better.

today as im writing this..i actually feel like i should be somewhere else where souls find rest in praising.
growing up in prayer thought me that the more we tend to sin, the more we should be close to God.
i have seen a lot of people who have fallen short and went out of the divine house because of shame, embarrassment and discouragement.
and just now i thought that by doing so, they only made themselves more available for sin to sink in.

as we realize we are getting weaker, we should know that the more we need to cry for help and draw nearer to He who understands all that our heart is bearing.
turning away will only lead us astray. there is no better comfort than the comfort that our Savior can show us.
an unfailing love, a gracious mercy and a non-judgmental heart is what we need when we feel like we have sold out our soul.
Our father is ever ready to accept us..all the chances He is ready to give us. if only we are also willing to turn back to Him then we will be guided to a better life. A life not perfect, but graciously filled.

life standing still

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 16:13:29 GMT

as black and dark as it may seem,
death brings hope to every soul.
our efforts in this world remain unrecognized,
but death brings importance to he who passed away.

                an aching heart,
                            pain that lingers all over..
                                    the tired feet,
                                            too many journeys to walk..
                    a shattered dream,
                                a bucket of ambitions to pursue,
                                           one strike of death's bolt
                                                     and rest is there at hand.

         to shed tears brings comfort from goodbye,
                     to miss is a burden..
                             there is still that second life.

we love the world too much we can't let go.
   but as we are trying so hard to live,
the world is killing us slowly and slowly..slow.. yet slow.

it can be so tempting

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 12:10:54 GMT

For the past few years of my life, i really felt like i've been through a lot of molding that i didn't think a bigger problem could come crashing me.
i actually thought there's nothing else that can make me stumble.
i believed i was strong and persistent in my belief,
but i was wrong.

in my life i learned, that you will never always know how strong you are until the day you come to pass.
every time you surpass a challenge, a greater challenge is always yet to come.
as long as life is going on for you, you will be tested.
and no matter how strong you thought you've become, these tests will find a way to get through your weakest point. and most of the time, people get caught unprepared.
because these trials in life are creepy, they crawl like a thief in the night. sometimes they blend in with your environment just so you will not realize you're already in the middle of tragedy until you're already falling off the edge.

but as always, hope is never absent.
where there is a crying soul, hopes shines through.
and all the strength that we've seem to have lost will be regained.
it's not because we are strong, but because there is that GREATER POWER who comes before us when we submit our weaknesses.

we are never alone in all the fights we take. we can always ask for strength to fight as long as we can.. and when all else fails,
to kneel in prayer is always the sure and best answer.

what i learned today

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 15:07:14 GMT

today i learned that,
--there is no better way in knowing a person than getting into an argument with him.

in times when there is increased pressure and thoughts are just thrown from here to there, personalities get revealed.
the usual sweet person you got to know becomes unusually sharp-pointed and kind of harsh..actually it doesn't always happen that way.
there are times when you get to see that under pressure, the person you once thought to be so aggressive is actually patient and relaxed.

arguments let us settle the things that we don't understand much about each other.
whether you shout it out, which usually happen most of the time, or just talk it out calmly..arguments lead to dispute cessation.

that is the positive side of argumentation..settlement.
but when two people cannot really decide to agree, that is when relationships are broken and pride soars higher than the eagles could reach!

there is no harm in arguing, as long as you are only expressing an opinion which does not personally degrade the other person.
to express is freedom, but when one life is already destroyed by such, then its better that silence is observed.

late reaction

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 15:19:52 GMT

When my brother and her 4-year girlfriend broke up..i felt sad of course, but never did i feel any resentment for the girl because i thought it may be what's best for both of them.
just now i realized, i am actually upset with her. not only did she broke my brother's heart..she also lost my parent's trust and mine.
after four years of knowing my brother and after their long time of togetherness she just have to break up with him because she 'fell out of love'?! and just days after that..she tells me she already has a new boyfriend...hhhmmm.
can a person just fall out of love that fast and fall inlove again?
is it that easy to let go and move on?
if you fell out of love..then maybe it must have been a long time already that you dont have feelings for the person anymore.
because love that fades is not love..it will never be love.
love never fades. that's why it is called love.
i just feel sorry for my brother...but in some way...im glad he's been freed so he can be happier.

secrecy

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 02:25:57 GMT

Everybody has a secret, every person always has something hidden inside his mind and heart.
There is always a thing to be kept from everyone else, something we don't want people to know about us or about them..or things that are better left hidden.

even in an intimate relationship with families, friends, partners or spouses..not all things will always be revealed. even when we speak with full honesty to the people we trust and who trusts us, we can never say we've said it all. even when we feel like we've shown it all, we can never be sure there's nothing more for them to see.
our mind is a huge box of treasures..memories and lingering thoughts remain within. and not all of these necessarily comes out to show.

when we think the people we know so much have said it all, we don't realize there are still more to be revealed. may it be from the past, present or desires for the future.
whether we like it or not, we can never be totally transparent to each other...never.
because even to ourselves, some things remain unraveled.
out memories are not constant, we don't always remember everything..and that keeps us from total transparency.

so, what you remember now..the things that comes most as your thoughts, are the things that define who you are. these are the things that reflect you to people.
with clarity or not..that is what's only revealed. and beyond it all..there are always those things that remain unspoken.

unwelcomed feeling

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 10:49:34 GMT

For a moment i felt so terminal.. and after all that i believe in about death as a restful sleep and a sweet escape from this noisy world, went blurred.. i instead felt threatened and scared.
i don't want to die! not right now.
..not when im young and still has many things to do
..not when i still long to be in a place i have never been
..not when im still striving hard to be someone i want to be
..not when i still enjoy the company of my friends
..not when i still miss my family
and especially not when i still feel there's a need for me to spiritually uplift myself.

death is one great threat all fear..its too dark, too silent, yet so near us.
i guess when life is all but peaking, it makes us struggle for more while we are thinking there is so little time left.

to protect the people you love

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 01:49:52 GMT

Lying is one thing that i don't like the most. It breaks the trust and confidence that binds a good relationship. But lately i have observed, that when you are in a situation where you either spill it or you don't in order to keep someone..most of the choice people tend to choose is to hide the truth..conceal what is real and lie.
White lie or not, a lie is still and lie and i have always believed that the truth really will set one free..but it is harder when you know that by saying what is true means you will have to hurt someone.
Personal Freedom is sweet! and it is only achieved by the total exposure of who you are to everyone around you. no masks, no walls of defense and no suppression!
if honesty is the best policy, why does it cause you to hurt someone?
if it means no harm, then why does it break relationships?
if the truth really will set you free, why does it contain you in the boundary of loyalty?

lie and love are never in a parallel with one another, but when i chose to hide the truth..i did so for the sake of love.
Life is so full of contradictions, wrong will always be wrong and what is right is always right,
But when someone is really important to you, time will come that you would have to make the wrong seem right.

a brain that's a year older

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 05:55:19 GMT

may 30,2008

as i come to take another step on my life's million steps journey, i look back at the year that just passed by me..one of the roads on this incredible adventure im taking that bought me so many humps that took me up and down and up and most of the times down.
What happened on my last walk will remain a track which the wind will eventually blow away some time.
But i will have to say, that ive just been to the most emotionally distressing time of my life. meeting new people was never that big an obstacle for me, creating a new circle was something i always tend to accomplish in a new found place. and never have i thought that in my latest adventure i would have to really insist to keep a friend, that trusting would be such an issue and never have i imagined that the time has come for me to face one of the greatest enemy that any person would have to overcome..one's own self.
it is harder to argue with your own beliefs, to convince yourself that things are not right, to forbid yourself from wanting what you wanted so badly. I have been my greatest obstacle, overcoming one's self is a challenge that grabs you of all your strength, it takes away the control youve been trying to hold on to and without greater help..you will fail and begin to let go..its like seeing another person take over your entire life..everything changes, you will then change.
it has been a tough year, but i have tougher support from all of my families and friends and i have the toughest God.
Today marks another path i will have to take..who knows what might come ahead? all i can do now is to learn from the mistakes ive made and correct them so i dont fail again.
my fight is a continuum. and it will never stop as long as my heart beats and my lungs expand.
i have never been a quitter and never will be. so if i would have to face a million temptations, a thousand troubles,losses and dismay and a hundred self..then i would have to brace myself. because after all, i am not on this fight alone!

and i just realized..i have been so happy all these years.

..that's a wrap! ahehehe. happy birthday me. mwaaaaaaaah. God bless us all.

the intensity of an anger

Mon, 26 May 2008 07:00:15 GMT

anger is one hell of an emotion! it either breaks the other person or destroys you.
ive been angry alot of times..and during those times, all i got were headaches, heartaches not to mention backaches and stomachaches. so in short, its an aching pain in the a**..ahehehe
its not wrong to be mad..we as a human being are not completely human if we dont rage, because thats a part of our emotion..its a part of the balance that buffers the world.
a smile is to frown
laughter to cries
joy to sadness
warmth to coldness
good feeling to pain
peace to war
and sadly..love to hate.

but just because you are mad doesnt mean youre hateful. hatred is a different feeling, its intensity reaches that to a maximum level. its never good and never will be.

on the other hand..anger is but normal to be felt, but its controllable yet most of the time..it gets out of our hands. because when you are just pissed off, no other way can make you feel better than just let it all out! its relieving..better than doing an inhale/exhale and hyperventilate!!

and as always..i suggest that we stay out of any violent reaction that might aggravate the situation and hurt the innocent ones. and after every tense situation, its also important to restore the calmness and resort to a good talk. one that would let each party tell her side of story. without anymore high pitching of the voice and accusations or defensiveness.

when we are angry..we say things we dont really mean..that's why it is wiser to stay quiet if there is nothing good to say. we can express how bad we feel by telling the person how improper it was for him to do it, that's it. calling him names wont make it any better..if both gets continually hurt..then it would take a longer time to fix the problem.

if someone just did you wrong today..you have the right to be angry. if that person doesnt matter to you..why bother stressing yourself out? if the person did mean to you..then think about what's more worthy to keep.

what it think is funny

Fri, 23 May 2008 05:02:51 GMT

Funny how i kept pushing people around me to be strong and to stand firm, to always face each day with optimism, to always see each obstacle as a challenge not a stop.

Funny how i kept smiling when tears gather up inside me and are just waiting to roll out, how im able to brace myself when everything else tend to fall down.

Funny how i can make such a strong predicament and let others live it for themselves.
how i tend to dictate how others should live and not live.

And now as i laugh, i came to think over it all,
i guess im just doing all these..so that i can could create a strong person outside of me.
And in the moment when i finally fail to wear a stronger mask,
Someone else would be there as my strength.

i ran out?

Tue, 20 May 2008 07:05:17 GMT

sometimes i just feel like im losing out of people to trust, friends to run to and things to do.
When i sit by the window and read my devotional i finally realize that it wouldnt matter, as long as i have a greater Powerful One watching over me.
But as long as im an earthling, ill always long for companionship. People to share my laughs and cries with, people who would respond to my emotional and physical needs. and yet, even when we thought we have this people surrounding us, we cant help but think that someday it will all still pass by. Our happiness here will be left forgotten, everyone who knows me will forget me as i will forget them. a day will come when we will all have a new name, special relationships will not be exclusive anymore. Each one will be my brother and my sister.

I can be very dramatic sometimes but the times i laugh are countless..yet now is one of those times when none of my laughter reechoes and though you hear nothing from me, you will see that something else is going on within me.

let it rain

Mon, 19 May 2008 06:48:53 GMT

when you really feel like you cannot take it anymore and its just eating you up, whatever it is, just cry it out!
go and let it flow out of you..let those tears roll down and release you from the flood that's been going on within!

i noticed that when i tried hard to keep everything closed, the more emotional i get and the more it makes me wanna cry..
and i didnt wanna cry, i didnt want to feel defeated and weak. big girls dont cry, as they did say, but i learned that the big girls who dont cry are just girls after all..only a real woman knows how to make a good cry..im not a girl anymore.

there was a time when my thoughts were messing up how i felt..i went to my room then just looked at myself in the mirror. i kept thinking about how bad i was feeling so i ended up even feeling worse about it. then suddenly, a tune came into my head, it was a familiar song..a song i once sang at our church..so i started to hum the melody and finally sang it softly..

"little flowers never worry, when the wind begins to blow..........so let it rain, let it rain, let it fall! let troubles be knockin at my door. if you realize them all. they would help to make us grow!"

i sang the chorus, "let it rain", repeatedly along with my feelings. and while i was singing i was still looking at myself in the mirror..then i felt something from within me was beginning to loosen up, the tightness was starting to let go..then i began to cry..and i still continued to sing the line, just letting the tears roll down my cheek..and when i finally came to a halt, i already felt better! its like ive been washed and cleared! the tears i cried was not because i was sad or depressed and not tears of joy as well but they were tears of letting go. all my troubles, everything that bothered me was wrapped in that small liquid mass..that's why it was salty..it carried all the worries i had, out and away.

i seldom cry, but when i do..it makes me feel alot better! still i have to say, that crying should only be done as needed. because too much of it weakens the heart too.

so cry if you must! just dont over do it.

and dont forget, always smile after you just had a good cry.

brainless

Sun, 04 May 2008 11:29:21 GMT

brainless

like the falling of the rain outside the window,
inside me is just flooding
of crazy and funny and stupid thoughts
that make me want to stop to think.

even with all the clatter of the rain up on the roof,
there is nothing i can hear but my thoughts.
i hate this kind of silence, it brings so much noise within me,
but i cant start to scream, i just want all this to end.

its better to be empty, than be filled with all these crap!
to let myself just float in nothingness
and feel nothing, not pain or too much joy
to be still, be numb and let it all pass by.

happy thoughts where can i find you?
i need you most, i need you now.
all i need is just to get away from here
to be free from what possesses me..away, away, and free!

LADY ENVY

Sun, 04 May 2008 11:24:54 GMT

i once knew someone who owned a big big house,
she had lots of cars and too many shoes and her dresses filled seven cabinets.
she was known and famous in her town..
but i heard, she was bitter and sad and never contented.
she lived a complete life, if things really what we count to give value,
but with all that she owned she always asked for more.

This lady had the heart who always envied those around her.
when she saw that her neighbor had a pretty furry poddle,
she bought a chowchow, even when she actually hated dogs.
and when she heard that her friend could sing and everyone adored her,
she immediately enrolled herself to get vocal lessons and held a mini concert so she can then boast for herself.
yet not too many came, not too many wanted to hear her.
and there was also a time when a great violinist came to play in their town opera house..
she got so envious that she even bought a crystal violin and learned to play as well.
but she couldnt be that good she wasnt even a bit better.

when i come to think of it, i really pitied her.
she already had everything...she just couldnt control her wanting.
every single thing she sees that's more that what she has
she asks for, she craves for, she prays its in her hands.
there came a time that she ran out of friends..
because nobody wanted someone that envious to be around,
they stayed away and no longer kept in touch
so the lady with all her money, bought people she could hang out.

one day as she was fixing herself for a party,
she heard a familiar voice call her name..
it didnt scare her, she knew who spoke and so she listened..she wanted to hear.
the voice told her she's unhappy, even when she tries so hard to deny,
it told her to stop the insanity, she was full of the things she desired.
there was a pause and a moment on silence, she finally came to decide.
the voice was right she told herself..so she smiled and then said..
"i always envied everyone when it is i who has everything, contentment wasnt with me,
i was always empty, jealous and confused..but now ive come to realize,
my talents and all my wealth..have never really filled me,
they have been nothing, not with nobody to share them with."

so the next day she opened her gates wide, and invited everyone around
for a party where she's giving away the stuff she never came to use.
and then she put up a school, where all who want to come
could learn to play the piano and the violin and then learn to dance ballet!
at the end of the day she again regained, the friend she once lost
she was loved by everyone, they always asked for her to sing!

and so a lesson here is taught,
its never good to nourish envy in our hearts
it makes us greedy and trying hard..makes us want more and more and more.
so the lady now is happy, thanks to the voice that talked to her,
the voice was hers, it was from within.
and so this only tells us..that we must hear the little voices that speak softly,
and forsake those that speaketh loudly of sin.

maybe the old songs will bring back the old times..or maybe not!

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 13:24:25 GMT

you have just moved on. you didnt really find another one but you have moved on.
what if that one thing from the past came back..not to haunt you but to start anew.
what will you do?

what we've left behind will stay behind as when we already burned the bridges we've already crossed to get at where we are now.
but if the person on the other side of the bridge just offered to rebuild with your help the bridge youve already burned, would you be willing to do so?

you might think :
"nah! that's why i burned that in the first place..so you wont be able to come across anymore! now these? oh please!!"

but then..another part of you is thinking:
"let me see, you dont look so bad as you were before. and you even look so sincere and eager to do this. maybe it wont hurt to give this a chance.."

think again..and think hard..you may want to take the risk or not..its up to you.

but moving on may be complete by doing either of these two:

a. walk away completely from that burned/broken bridge and never to look back or return again
b. rebuild it with the person you left behind, let him cross over and make a new start.

both can work for everybody or just any of the two. what's important is that we know how to deal with what has been so we can be better on what is to come.

Spoken

Midnight Voice

♥ Are you really sleeping,can you hear me whispering?Do you know how you've changed me,from good to something better?

♥ Can you not smile for me,at least not that way?Don't talk to me so gently please,it only reminds me of someone else.

Let it Pour

madre

Amidst the Noise

unwanted reminiscing

"the poem he never wrote"

in the eyes of a child there is purity

longest holiday

against ones will

my devotion

life standing still

it can be so tempting

what i learned today

late reaction

secrecy

unwelcomed feeling

to protect the people you love

a brain that's a year older

the intensity of an anger

what it think is funny

i ran out?

let it rain

brainless

LADY ENVY

maybe the old songs will bring back the old times..or maybe not!

♥ Are you really sleeping,
can you hear me whispering?
Do you know how you've changed me,
from good to something better?

♥ Can you not smile for me,
at least not that way?
Don't talk to me so gently please,
it only reminds me of someone else.